Let's say, theoretically, I'm ; a pedophile.
;I'm not stupid or evil, so I'm not gonna DO anything. I'm not even gonna look at porn, because the production of it involves child exploitation. Hell, even porn that's just drawn – perverts drawing smut for perverts with no kids or anyone else involved – is illegal in a lot of places. I don't even look at kids in public, and anyone of whatever orientation who's been to a crowded beach knows how hard it can be not to look.
;So what the fuck should I do? Chemical castration? But I haven't DONE anything and I don't plan to. Am I obliged to tell anyone? Good way to lose friends and get the shit kicked out of me. Can I keep baby-sitting my friends' kids when they need a hand? After all, if I were into adult women, people wouldn't just assume I'd molest them.
;My sex drive was put together wrong, Dan. What the fuck do I do? Live alone and hope Japan starts producing affordable sexbots before I'm too old to care? You know, theoretically. If I were a pedophile.
;Knows It's Wrong
;;"My heart goes out to people to whom nature has given something as powerful and as distracting as a sex drive and no healthy way to express it," says Dr. James Cantor, a psychologist and the editor in chief of the research journal Sexual Abuse. "Pedophiles are not the only folks in this position, but they are by far the most demonized, regardless of whether they have ever actually caused anyone any kind of harm."
;My heart is going out to you, too, KIW. As I've written before, we should acknowledge the existence of "good pedophiles," people like you, who are burdened with a sexual interest in children but who possess the moral sense to resist acting on that interest. It's a lifelong struggle for "good pedophiles," and most manage to succeed without any emotional support – to say nothing of credit – whatsoever.
;Unfortunately, science doesn't know much about pedophiles like you, pedophiles who haven't done anything, because the social stigma is so great that most nonoffending pedophiles never seek treatment. And what research has been done, says Cantor, isn't very encouraging if you're looking to free yourself from your attraction to children.
;"There is no known way of turning a pedophile into a nonpedophile," says Cantor. "The best we can do is help a person maximize their self-control and to help them build an otherwise happy and productive life."
;The psychotherapies that are available, says Cantor, "were designed to assist people who have already committed an offense to prevent a ‘relapse.' These therapies have less to provide to people who already have the skills and drive to keep themselves from ‘acting out.'" Your best option, according to Cantor, may be the one you're clearly not too enthused about (and who can blame you?): "Castration, both chemical and physical, can indeed be used to eliminate or take the edge off one's sex drive."
;And as for baby-sitting …
;"It is true that a regular, heterosexual man is not going to commit an offense against every woman he finds attractive; however, most women are capable of recognizing when an interaction is just starting to go south and of getting out of the situation. Most children are not. So although there is every reason to believe that there exist cats that can successfully be in charge of the canary, it's not a very good idea for the cat to be the one making that call."
;So no baby-sitting for you – to protect the kids, first and foremost, but yourself as well. If it ever comes out that you are a pedophile and you were in the habit of baby-sitting-without-touching, your friends are unlikely to take your protestations that you've never touched a child at face value.
;"I wish I had better news," concludes Cantor. "I also wish that more people did good research on this so that one day I could have better news to give."
;;One of the reasons given ; for the nomination of Pope John Paul II for sainthood is that he "whipped himself with a belt, even on vacation," according to a new book about him. If that's what it takes, why isn't David Carradine a saint? What is the link between Catholicism and sadomasochism? As a former seminarian, perhaps you can explain.
;When Holiness Is Painful
;;First, I was in the preparatory seminary, a high school for boys considering the priesthood – not a full-blown seminary, WHIP. I didn't go on to the seminary: I stopped considering the priesthood when it dawned on me that I could still wear dresses, fuck boys and live in a big house filled with Catholic kitsch without becoming a priest.
;As for the link between Christianity and sadomasochism, well, considering the way Jesus died (whipped, verbally abused, crucified) and the gruesome deaths of so many early Christians at the hands of Romans, what other choice did Christians have but to view suffering as evidence of divine favor and personal virtue? And I suspect that 2,000 years of hearing about how Jesus suffered and died for our sins – whether we wanted him to or not – couldn't help but have an impact on the erotic inner lives of the faithful. But taking sexual gratification from the infliction of pain predates Christianity, so you can't pin all the kinksters out there on the Catholics.
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